I’m happy now
That’s sure to change
In hours, or minutes
I will be full of rage
Then I will feel nothing
I will be empty inside
I will feel betrayed
No on in which to confide
I will then want to die
To silence the things I hear
But I always stop slashing
Because there is too much fear

Now what do you say about one
Who doesn’t have the strength to live
And doesn’t even have the courage
To just lie down and die?

Yeah I guess I’m happy
But the scars, stinging, remain
But this little miracle came along
And it stole away all my pain
Cant you see I’m social
I’m all you want to be
Just wait 5 minutes
And you will see the real me
I’m always open
But I’m deceiving
I’ll always stay
But I’m always leaving

What do you say about one
Who doesn’t even know himself
And yet he thinks he can figure out
Every body else

I’ll be your best friend
But in your trust, I’ll lie
I’ll Be their until the very end
Unless you try to defy
I’ll kill you while im laughing
Embrace you while I’m in tears
I’ll enter with abandon
Places I should enter with fear
Some days I will just go away
To a place inside my mind
Another person has taken over me
Is what you will see every time

What do you say about about one
Who can’t even hold the consciousness
To which he was born
And has to give it up to survive

I’ll listen to what you have to say
But only if its what I really want to hear
Other wise I’ll shoot down your ideas
I will belittle all of your fears
And god forbid, you say you want to help
When I swear there is nothing wrong
I will just say I’m happy, its fine
It’s been perfect all along
This is not like all the other times
No this time is different, It will stay
No this is not like the times before
These feelings will never go away
And if I can help it you wont ever know me
Get out of my head, just pretend
And please just leave me alone
Because I swear this life will never end

What do I say about someone like me
What do I say about someone for who I care
What can I say about someone I can see through
What can I say about someone who scares me

I say absolutely nothing
I just stand by and watch it unfold
I cant say anymore that I am worried
And I know I can not scold
But I don’t want her to fall
I don’t want her to be the places that I’ve been
I don’t want her to lose this
She thinks this life’s easy that we’re living in
I can’t convince her otherwise
It’s planted deep within her mind
I want to pull it out and destroy it
But It wont budge as hard as I try
So I watch, and I know, and I fear
It’s like I traveled back in time
And, oh god, I don’t want to be here
Because I know whats coming next